Justice

This is my Golden boy, Justice. I know everyone says they have the best dog, but for me.. he truly was and always will be the goodest boy.. He was like a moving stuffed toy. He was a gentle giant. Everyone loved him. He was the sweetest boy ever. Always followed me around.. he was my shadow. Even at his final days.. when he couldn’t get up anymore. he would still do his best to crawl and follow me to the bathroom. He never wanted to be apart from me. I always hated traveling because it meant time away from him. He was the best cuddle buddy ever. He loved playing fetch, taking naps with us.. begging for food of course. He was always so behaved when we would bring him with us to grandmas, camping, to the park… he was just the greatest companion ever. I knew the day would come that I would have to let him go.. but I could never prepare for the pain. We helped him cross the rainbow bridge back on April 25th of this year. It’s been so hard dealing with the grief. I had just lost my dog of 15 years the year before. I try everything to escape it.. but grief.. it always catches up to me. I miss him sooooo much, everyday… I look for him everywhere I go. It’s like living in this world without him is just existing. I have Nipsey now, and he has helped me cope with the loss. I was glad that Nipsey got to spend a few months with big brother. I felt that Justice taught him everything he needed to know to make mommy’s heart full.. and to lick my tears every time I cry missing him and Sally.. the pup we lost last year. Every dog have their own mark and special place in our hearts and lives.. every loss has its own pain. I just know that I believe there is a rainbow bridge because I will meet all my buddies there one day.. and we will all be together again and never have to part. I did my best for Justice.. I know he knows that.. but I feel guilt that I held on to him too long. I couldn’t just let him go without a fight but I knew he was only living for me. I’m sorry my boy.. if you were suffering silently.. I wish I could read your mind… but at least I know we were in your heart. You loved us.. you were the most perfect dog ever.. sooo loyal. I don’t know how much more I have in this world but I just know I won’t ever forget you.. and I can’t wait to be with you again. It’s been hard.. I take it day by day. I still cry almost everyday. We had such a strong special bond that only we both understood. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and bringing out the best in me. You helped me through losing Sally.. I just wasn’t prepared to lose you too.. but I guess you both couldn’t be without each other. I know you loved sissy so much, I’m happy that you guys are with nanay now watching over us always. You will always be my Hunney boy… my big boy.. my sweetheart.. my shamehada de busti ni Inay.. my boss dog. My everything. Till we meet again my love. I know time heals… but I will forever be missing you and your cuddles 😢🐕🦋🐾🌈💋